Yeah, just hang in there! and you totally aren't immature if you cry. Its a great wat to release stress I also love Shuu very much. People are so nice on it and it makes me feel all bubbly inside. Whenever you need to talk more personally, people on Shuu will always listen. We might not be that close, but it slowly develops into bonds, just by talking 'typing' to eachother and being there for one another.

To the persons who thing that crying is immature or "Not cool". What everyone said is true. It's a way to relieve yourself from stress or even to show that you cannot handle your emotions, no matter how big.

I have cried a lot. And I'm a guy. But "Boys don't cry" and "Boys are tough" doesn't and will never go up for me due to that I have quite the emotional luggage behind me, I think that if you cry, it's good for yourself to release whatever you have. But talking helps too. Writing helps (It's one of the reasons I started writing.) Just open a notepad and write. Whatever it is, or even draw for all I care, just that you have another release other than crying.
It's just an advice that helped me.

And what Yatchen said is true, it will get better when you get older. Look at me, I'm happy with the friends I have, and I haven't left Shuu since I'm being dragged here by Kage since 2007.
Anyhow, Thunder, Alice. If you two want some external advice or just want someone to write to, there are a lot of people on Shuu who want to help you out even if they don't know you personally.

Thank you everyone, for your kind words. I was feeling a a bit down yesterday since I called my friend for advice on homework and she called me a stupid.

I've tried your advice, Fhant. But it doesn't help everytime. Still I do it. The loneliness is too much to bear.

I'm glad you all think I'm not immature and childish.

And, I hope your relatives and your grandmother get well soon, Camelia. I really do.

Once again, thanks again for the advice everyone.

I don't cry a lot. I would even say, not enough. There are times I just wish I had cried, because it's the normal reaction, but I didn't. Thus, sometimes I ask myself if I'm that indifferent to the world. Do I really care about people? And more question about myself. There, you have the point of view of someone who rarely cry.

Writing did help me understand a few things about myself, especially for an introvert like me. Moreover, so many ideas would be wasted if I didn't write ( current word numbers: 249 000 ).

Talking is great too. I have spent fond years of chatting with shuu folk, but lately it has been stale, much to my regret. Some people are really heartwarming, and in fact, I just felt that I confided to someone, things that I usually wouldn't let out. Since last year, I don't feel like I had a lot of meaningful conversation.

There is a hotel/restaurant across the street where i live... it's diagonally placed. There is a huge tree growing in the middle of the garden... or... there used to be a tree there...
A few minutes ago it crashed down and it's a miracle that there's nobody hurt...
I was so scared... ; _ ;

I'm going to Anime Expo in a two days! Woot, super excited! It's gonna be a great con this year, can't wait. I'll probably be back after July 4th. Hope everyone has a nice summer/winter!

I managed to flood the house ytd and i hope I don't burn it down today.
Also there is some building goin on on the street and its so noisy @______ @;
& I go study now D:

Last week I was super excited about Little Boots having a concert in Sofia & last night my boyfriend bought me tickets for it, but I'm not sure I'll be able to go, since my work schedule is horrifying! ;3;
He said he should have known this might happen, but he wanted me to have the ticket anyways - in case I do manage to go~

I have my fingers crossed that on Wednesday there aren't too many children, so I can leave work first and attend the concert! ;v;

>3<'
My biology exam was today...
And i did pretty bad on it...
Macro-evolution... D: WHY?WHY?!?!
I don't even know what should i write in this theme xD
The other two were bones & Eukaryotic Cells.
I was like... writing random stuff that I remember.
But when they told the themes all the info was like flying away D:
SO evil.

>3<' Later today I'm catching my train to go visit RockRabbity~ since i have another exam tomorrow in Sofia ;;

Pretty exhausted today after spending the last five days at Anime Expo. Sleep wasn't my first priority there, so now I'm paying for that. Had a great time too, bought lots of goodies, met lots of people, and enjoyed time with my friends. ^_^ Oh, and I got Steve Blum's, Monica Rial's, Jamie Marchie's, Ryo Horikawa's, Traci Hines', Joey Garceffa, and Peter Beagle's autographs; so I'm a very happy girl today. I MISSED SHUU!

Quick notice: I'm going to China tomorrow. Chance are I won't be much online for 1 week.

Ooo, have fun in China, Merun! It's a great place for a vacation!!! Let us know about it when you get back.

Have fun in China Romain! For your brother's wedding right? Be safe. ^_^ I would love to hear all about it when you get back!

I know you had a lot of fun at the Expo Ash. Thank you for texting me about it. ^^ Someday I would like to go to that one as well. Anyway, I'm glad you're a happy girl! Lol. And welcome back to Shuu~ x3 <3

It's not that I didn't trust you from the first place. It's that I've lost faith.

I thought at least you're different in a way, but it's just the same all over again. I'm in this resented cycle which I can't get out from simply because it's a part of life some considers too much. People will lie to themselves over fame, they'll flock at statuses and do anything to achieve recognition from those said to have powers, those who have popularity. I don't think of it as something to be concerned of, it's stupid. People love to be adored and known, I'm no different, but the edge is apparent to me. They've gone too far and there's no reason for me to not grow tired of people like these, not excluding you.

I've seen them everywhere. They're basically everyone these days.

I hate it.
Is your status worthy enough to dump your friends?

If someone's dumping their friends to chase power or those who have it then they weren't a very worthy friend anyway. :B


In other news, I broke up with my boyfriend. That was amicable; it was time.
Angry venting below.

But then a week later (on what would have been our anniversary) I find out he has a new girlfriend already...which isn't inherently bad (though I figure he had to have been planning to get with her before we split since they had been dating for a few days already when I found out, and I mean, come on), but what really bothers me is that when we broke up he told me he *wouldn't* date another girl until he knew I had moved on because he still loved me and wanted to be with me, *and* half the reason we broke up was that he thought he wasn't in the right mental state to be in a relationship with anyone.

We weren't even un-Facebook official yet, which is what hurt most. I was doing everything I could to preserve his feelings about the breakup, and he was wooing some new girl. Argh.

Now I've seen him going to our mutual friends on Twitter and saying, "oh, you're still following me, I'm so surprised!" and crap, lol. It's pathetic. It's not my fault if my best friends want to stop following you. You're an asshole to everyone you know, *and* you caused me pain. What do you expect?!

Okay, I feel better having written this. There's no way he can creep on me venting here too, lmao.