A guy that lived under my roof with rent doesn't understand why I'm kicking him out onto the street and giving him two days to pack. I think that me saying "You called my best friend a hellbound faggot, you piece of ****." should have driven the message home. Sigh, some people.

No regrets, some people are just trash. Especially bigots.

I wanted to say thank you for the support and prayers for my grandma. She passed away last night. Please continue to pray for me and my family. Thank you. I will try to be positive for her. I know it's what she would've wanted.

I will be honest, but for lack of better word to empathize and fear of my own demons, I often avoid this topic when it's sad. I just fear that whatever I might say will end up being empty words. But I'm with you my friend. Stay strong Yuna-chan!

I feel the same as Merun.
We are wishing the best for you, yuna.

Thank you Merun and Yatchen. I'm keeping my head up. I'm glad I have friends I can count on here. You guys really are the best.

Stay strong, Ashley. The hard part is over, it's all on the flat from here on.



I have a similar fear since I have a few deficiencies in the socializing department myself but I just say them anyway.

I fear nothing of what the people think of my words when the subject is sad. I only type what I feel like. I avoid typing "Stay strong!" or such sentences because I deem them pointless to type due to many other people doing it. So I'd rather take a bit of long text and a bit of thinking or just ignore it if nothing comes to mind.

Well I read around that your grandmother died. I have many theories regarding death, but let's not get into long talks. I just hope you don't lose your composure because a relative died. I know someone like that.

Hmm... there are few people like me. Maybe I should rethink the small sentence cheering thing. Maybe short words can encourage..... encourage? ... but of course! Most people are emotional! Wait there was something I wanted to write aside from this... ah I can't remember. I was thinking about it, but didn't write it down. I thought writing this down first would be better, then the other. But I forgot what I was thinking about. Well maybe it will come back to me.

Anyway, regarding praying. Sorry I won't do that. I'm quite the non-religious person. I never pray. But when I do, it's Boondock Saints, Amen. Though I never killed someone before. Nor do I plan to. Wait a second.... am I really non-religious? ... I believe in my own religion yet I don't know how to define it? I need to think about this a lot. Ah. But of course. I am quite religious. I will pray on behalf of my Gods and Goddesses (unless it's just one True Being... wrote that I need to think about this) for your grandmother. Be it she not enter Christian Heaven, she might enter my God's/s and Goddesses Heaven. I haven't though of worded prayers hmm... I'll think about it. Ugh this thing is getting on my thoughts. Get it? Hahahaha.

Encouraging is it. Are you one of those people? Then please don't falter from what's in front of you because of what fell down behind you. A life fell. It was out of stamina. Now look ahead and continue. You have a lot of stamina left. Now use it properly. You have a bright future ahead of you, young lady. Use the opportunities to achieve greatness and happiness.
Though if your most beloved person dies. I wouldn't know what to say. Something that's not to my true self, or something that is to my true self. If it's something that's not to my true self, I will most likely write down something similar to what I wrote above. If it's something to my true self... well... let's leave that to be a mystery and no such tragedy will ever occur in your life.

I feel like part of this was destined to me. Plan to ignored, but here I'm posting, so I will just say that you are misunderstanding what I said, though that's the way I intended by staying cryptic. I don't plan to say more; these are my own issues.

Thanks Quenlin and Tensa. I appreciate it.

Oh, and Tensa, I wasn't telling you to pray or anything, but it would be nice if you could. Just saying a few words is all I'm asking, and it doesn't have to be to a god or goddesses, just a kind thought to yourself is enough. Hope I'm not making this worse.

@ Merun: If you're talking about what I wrote, you're mistaking. It's all towards Yuni-chii.

@ Yuna: Well fine by me, but I will still think hard about my religious pov. You may say that you inspired me, but you didn't do anything bad. I reached such a question. I'm going to answer it myself. It ain't bothersome really. It's quite exciting if I may say so. I like to think a lot about such things. Though even before I wrote that, it was kind of complicated for me anyway. Some might know, but there are two places that makes people a philosopher. First is a seat from any transporation vehicle. Bus, tramway etc. Of course, it'll happen only if you're alone and ONLY if you don't Tweet or FB or whatevever. Just put your headphones on. Play your favorite song, and look outside the window as you go. And the second is the toilet. It may be funny, but it's quite true.

Now then, tomorrow in the afternoon (my afternoon) there will be a little prayer on a paper, that will be put on a tree. I shall recite the prayer while looking at the tree. A tree is quite a wonderful life. If you think about it, a tree under favorable conditions, can live for eternity. I find the trees as being full of life. That is why I believe it's the best place to recite the prayer. In front of a tree. If you think I'm weird anyway, I don't really mind. I have my own views, you have your own views.
Now if anyone thinks "Why bother with something like that? Just say something out loud.", it's because of respect towards Ashley.

Ah... and here I wanted to make this post short. Well. This is what writing what's on your mind is, I guess.

Aww, thank you Tensa, that made a tear in my eye.

Third place you forgot: bed, before sleeping when you can't sleep.

God damn it Aizawa :/ Give me that weather! Grrr!
Well don't say I wouldn't want it. Believe me, I want it. The entire city zone I'm living in didn't have a flood for .. I don't know, before I was born and no storms for yeeeeaaaaarrrrsssssss.... well every house and building around here are stone made, so they'll resist. Made out of bricks, stone, whatever.