I'm studying IT myself, had been doing that for the last 3 years. Lost the first one and a half when switched to the new 'bolonia' grades (The new european [s]crap[/s] standard, not sure if that's the English name for it too), so I'm basically finishing the first year AGAIN now.
I can't really say I have a bad life, objectively speaking my life is amazing (Studying what I wanted where I wanted, mom pays for the rent of a small room and university, and have a small income doing little jobs fixing stuff that I can use to pay food and books, all I need in this life).
It's just that after 3 years of programming bullshit applications (In a way that would get you fired from any job) and studying maths, economics, laws and other slightly unrelated things, I've realised that the things I want to know aren't taught in any university in my country (Mainframe managing and social engineering are my preferences for an IT related job), but I can't leave and switch to another grade, because It would be a terrible waste of both time and money for me and my mother. You know, as macbeth said, 'I am in blood/ Stepped in so far that, should I wade no more,/ Returning were as tedious as go o’er.
'. And as you can possibly imagine, I can't say I'm happy with my current situation. Even if I tried I couldn't get a job to pay for my studies (with over 5 million unemployed in the country they ask for a grade and 3 years of experience even to work on a supermarket), and I really feel like a leech for that. Thinking that my mother is working hard so I can study something that I have finished hating just kills me.
About what do I want to do: Since I was a child my dream has been to open a bookshop in a small town (In Spain or any English speaking country, preferably the second one given the current situation). You can imagine how difficult is to do that nowadays, with the decline of physical books, the small market share in a 50k habitant town (plus the competence) and the money you need to start a business like that. I've been thinking about it for years and maybe it could work with an online store with national shipping, but still I fail to see how could I manage to live from a bookshop. I still work on the business plan and other stuff in my free time, just for fun.
Anyway, who cares, I'll finish the grade and I'll surely finish working programming accounting applications 10 hours a day for the rest of my life like everyone else, who gives a ****? It's always nice to rant about it somewhere from time to time thought, sorry for the wall of text